|Artwork done in my spare time.|
I've been actively drawing for about 6 years and writing for 8 years. Some of my oldest drawings included dragons and humans on paper, but now I currently work with traditional, digital, and pixel art.|
For traditional art, I use the following:
-Daler Rowney/Reeves assorted pencils ranging from 4H-6B. These are reserved for shading (if I'm bothered to do so).
-Sakura Micron .8 and .500 ink pen. For outlining my work. I'm currently working improving the quality of my lines with this.
-Black Prismacolor Premier pencil. This is amazing for making dark lines.
-Kneaded eraser. Essential for shading traditional art.
-Charcoal pencils. I'm being introduced to them right now, so I can't explain how useful they are right now.
-Blending tortillon/stump. They work wonders for making shading look extra smooth than just using your drawing instrument.
-Various colored pencils (Daler Rowney, Derwent, Prismacolor, and Crayola). I don't have a whole lot of expensive materials, but the colors produced by whatever pencil I use is sufficient in my current artwork.
For digital art, I use the following:
-Photoshop CS6/CS2. The most powerful art program for art. I use this for graphic design and possibly some touch-ups of artwork.
-Easy Paint Tool SAI. The line art tool in this program is quite possibly the best one, better than PS, in my opinion. It also runs extremely efficiently on my 1GB RAM netbook.
-MS Paint. The best program for pixel art, despite having no layers.
-Irfan View. What I use to make my pixel art transparent.
-Huion 6.5x10 tablet. Cheap, about 60USD, but works about as well as the Intuos series.
So begins the new year of 2014. It has been a long time since I’ve actually posted a journal update. Two years, actually? So many things have happened, and I’m not too sure what has happened as well.
I had and broke up with 3 partners, sadly. Two of them were real, and the other was a ploy because they felt pity for me. In the end, they were just not right for me, and so I must move on. I’m currently in the midst of dating for the first time locally, and I am seeing 1-2 people that may be interested. I’m not entirely sure who I’d pick, but one goes to my school and the other goes to another band that I’m in.
Speaking of which, last summer, I joined 4 out-of-school bands from the area. I play trombone, and since they’re in need in the area, I joined them, and they’ve helped me considerably. I look forward to going to rehearsal as it’s a time to relax and just be myself. My ride to most rehearsals happens to have my personality, so we get along pretty well. What’s funny is that she graduated the year I was born in, and has the same birthday I have. The age difference is pretty big, but I happen to learn a lot from her in terms of instrumentation and trivial stuff, so it works out in the end.
Approaching the end of my junior year, my penultimate year in grade school, I’ve been distraught by the death of both of my grandparents- my grandmother on October 29th, 2013, and my grandfather on December 27th, 2013- and a close friend of mine, Henry, who passed away March 9th, 2014, I believe. It’s been a constant battle with depression nowadays, and sometimes I am overwhelmed with the responsibilities of someone who is quickly approaching adulthood. I mean, yesterday, it feels like I just turned 17, but now almost half the year has gone by. They say that time passes much more quickly for those who experience back to back milestones in their life, which is something that makes sense. However, time seems to pass slow and fast at the same time.
Backing up a little bit, my band director in my high school retired at the end of last school year, so we had a new band director. I don’t agree with his personality and style of teaching whatsoever, and it’s been a constant battle fighting with him. I didn’t want to go to the Thanksgiving American football game that we have each year because I was still coping with my grandmother’s loss, so I said that I might not be able to. He proceeded to call me ignorant and told me to swallow my pride and go anyways. While I am the only trombonist and pretty much competent low brass player, I am needed in the band, but I think at that point, it’s more necessary to take into consideration my emotional stability than not.
There is one person in the band that I’ve been seeing as of late. Seeing as those I know a couple of people who watch me on dA who are in said band, I won’t go and exactly describe them and what they play, as it might spread out, but I’ve been hearing some positive stuff from my “wingman”, who plays trombone as well. Hopefully, everything goes well, but I’m not counting on it because this the first time that I have to make a move in person. It feels extremely awkward and stupid of me, but as with being on the Autism spectrum, I must accept and adapt to my circumstances and not let that get the best of this opportunity.
While we’re on the topic of emotions, it’s been pretty turbulent for me, with that in mind. The feelings that I have are confusing and destructive, with a more misanthropic side emerging more and more frequently. It hurts me and others pretty frequently, and I fear that I have some sort of depression or manic depression disorder, but it’s unlikely that I’ll get a diagnosis until college, when I can schedule my own appointments and such. With the passing of my grandparents, I spiraled into a deep sadness, with frequent bouts of suicidal thoughts. There continue to be short periods of time where I experience those feelings for other reasons, and it gets to be pretty bad at times, with time feeling elongated during these periods of time.
For the time being, however, I am coping pretty well, at the cost of my physical health. I’m healthy, but I am sleep-deprived most of the time and experience headaches more often than not, which tend to be pretty bad. I have yet to find an effective coping mechanism except for doing work. For some reason, this is the singular thing that helps me feel better and in some cases, pretty hyper. I wouldn’t mind working a job for most of my life, even if it did involve physical labor. Personally, though, I’d like to work in a laboratory with other scientists.
My artwork has greatly improved during this period of time. What was once laborious and cost me a lot of time is now a simple process. Anatomy is much more known to me, but I tend to draw less during school due to artist’s block and the like. I’ll try to post new stuff more often, but it’s getting harder and harder to really work on something, so perhaps I’ll work a schedule out for myself.
Anyways, I figured that I should update my life for all of you, as I’ve been extremely quiet. Maybe I’ll try and get some things done during the summertime, but I’m doing rehearsals and concerts pretty much daily, which throws that out of the window. I’ll see you guys soon.